Hello again guys,
For those that accompanied my previous disturbing thread, I am back in the forum again. Evidently, I suffer from severe depression and I have height dysphoria too and I have been discussing it with my therapist. I know LL is not a joke and has to be taken seriously, after all, it can be life-changing either for the better or the worse. Although getting rid of my mental illness tops all my priorities and that getting taller would not be the solution to all my problems It sure as hell would be such a relief for myself. I have been carrying this burden of feeling short for so long and it is so debilitating mentally, it literally soaks all my energy and motivation to invest in my life pursuits. Honestly, I do not think I will ever be truly happy at this stature, I am just not happy with it. I don't feel manly at all, my legs are short as well as my arms, hands and feet. Statistically, my height falls on the average range but I see a lot more often white guys more or less my age taller than the other way around.
This is why even considering all the risks I would like to get this done, I don't care if I may put my ability to walk or whatever in jeopardy, the only thing I know is that if I could reach a better height I would feel a lot better about myself and raise my confidence to deal with life. At least 8cm on my femurs to reach 182/183, I would like to lengthen. I have tiny proportions for a grown man, I guess I was spoiled by some bad gene or something. My wingspan is 175cm on the dot but my arm length is quite short, only 70-72cm from my armpit to the extremity of my middle finger, thanks to my broad shoulders from several years lifting weights I can at least match my own height or perhaps a bit more, I am like 172,5 in the evening, 174 in the morning or 174,5. my legs are quite short, I am only 99cm from the ground to my bellybutton so fortunately I was blessed with a relatively long torso. My hands are small too, I have small fingers and nails and it is embarrassing as fk, my hand length is 7 inches only lol. My feet although small not abruptly so, a modest size 42 European.
I am worried my proportions cannot handle my desired height increment and I will look like a t-rex or something I would really appreciate some advice. I had a talk with my mom about it once and she thought this is crazy and unheard of, which is.. it isn't mainstream yet and probably never will. Nevertheless, I confessed to her that it's been a long time I've been suffering from this and then she told me the usual lose weight, proper grooming blablabla bull to give the illusion I am taller than I really am. I asked her what she thought about me doing it and she replied nothing more nothing less than that i'm immature to even consider something like this. I gave the silly me laugh but my heart ached inside. Well, at the end of the day I am not expecting my parents to support me with this that's why I would never include them on my plans let alone asking for money to do this. I just want to know how all of you deal with your parents and siblings because it can be a struggle.
I am 22 and only recently I have started working and have barely saved any money yet. I want to do STRYDE on my femurs with Paley (I mean who the hell doesn't) but it's too expensive it would take me to many years to save that kind of money. Is there any cheaper viable alternative?
Of course I am not expecting to do internal femurs with 20k but 100k seems too much for one segment alone, something in between those two figures would be more doable.
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