Hello,
Feels surreal to be finally writing a diary. I remember reading these patient experience diaries nearly a decade ago and now here I am finally writing one.
I am writing this having just had my surgery a few days ago. with Dr Becker/Betz (I have primarily dealt with Dr. Becker throughout the experience).
Background prior to this:
- 171.5cm
- Mid 20s
- Goal (10cm+ Femurs) followed by Tibias once recovered (5-7cm)
My height has never matched my "residual self-image" to be trite. I started wearing shoe lifts in early high school once I stopped growing, and was obsessed with the idea of getting taller and general trying to overcome my genetic limitations in a number of areas. This weighed on me fairly heavily and consumed a lot of my thoughts until I saw a movie called Gattaca (I am sure many here have seen it), researched limb lengthening. As soon as I knew it was possible - I basically decided then and there when I was in my late teenage years that I would be getting LL surgery. Once I had a clear pathway forwards my height stopped bothering me, I effectively internalised that my height was post-LL height and focused on acquiring the resources and being in the right set of circumstances to get the surgery. I was basically nearly in a position to get the surgery around the start of 2019 but COVID travel restrictions and lockdowns threw a lot of things in my life up in the air both personally and with work and it's only now that I have been in a position to take the time off to do it.
Preparation:
Physical:
In the 6 months leading up to the surgery, I spent a lot of time getting physically in shape, consistent weight lifting, cardio, daily stretching, overall mobility work, quit smoking, lost almost 25kg of fat and put on a decent amount of muscle.
Obviously it's relative to my starting point but I am in the best shape I have ever been in my life.
Work: Taking a month of work/sick leave prior to Christmas period, then a month of annual leave. Told them I am getting an operation on my knees - didn't obviously specify what (nor did they ask). I will likely still be engaging in some amount of work even while on leave (bits and pieces of comms and email) but being on leave means if I don't do any work at all for a few months there won't be any fallout
Mental:
In a sense I have been preparing mentally for this for almost a decade so my expectations with regards to the amount of pain, discomfort and overall suffering necessary to finish LL and make a decent recovery have set the bar really low. Anything better than absolute torturous amounts of pain and sleepless nights is basically going to exceed expectations.
Prior to the surgery for the last 6 months I have been practicing daily meditation to try and get a better overall focus/willpower/self-control and a more deliberate/'in the moment" thought process.
Financial: I work in the engineering sector, and have a very good salary, so while the cost of the surgery will definitely set me back, it's not going to damage my finances too much.
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Pre-flights:
In general it didn't really hit me that I was about to have an operation I had been wanting for years until I was lying down on the operating table.
Everything moved fairly quickly, I contacted the Betz institute in October, got a slot in November by asking for them to put me on the waiting list if anyone cancelled, took the November date when it became clear, had my initial consultation with Dr. Becker over Zoom - who I immediately felt comfortable with (he comes across as fairly intelligent/competent and seems to be quite well versed in every aspect of the surgery already).
I did blood work to make sure there wasn't anything wrong with my health before I flew out, which came back clear. Booked tickets to be in Freiburg a few days prior to the in-person consultation. Everything was so chaotic with work that I didn't have a moment to let any of it sink in, did a rushed job packing and basically landed in Germany and continued to work immediately.
Day -7:
In person consultation + X-Rays, I was amused at how invasive the x-rays are - you are basically in your underwear for about 3 minutes moving your junk around in that protective casing to avoid x-raying your crown jewels XD
Consultation with Dr. Becker was as expected - it was extremely detailed but almost all of the information was stuff I was already familiar with from prior research, forums etc.,
Dr. Becker comes across as knowledgable, professional/competent and fairly trustworthy as per the zoom call so this added to my level of comfort (again though I really barely had a moment to soak in that this was happening so it's not like I was nervous).
I get the express PCR and antigen test the day before and I sleep as if nothing of significance is happening the next day...
Day 0/Surgery day:
I wake up. I hurriedly check out of my hotel grab all my luggage and get a taxi to the clinic.
I am a little bit late. I shake hands with Dr. Becker, speak to the anaesthesiologist... finally a brief moment of realisation that it's really happening. I get into the surgery gown and they put me under.
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To be continued!