UPDATE TIME : EVERYTHING WORKED OUT - This is a long post, and I've already deleted the parts I found problematic, Non-PC or just too cynical.
Height and Income needed to compensate :
STUDY LINK: https://home.uchicago.edu/~hortacsu/onlinedating.pdfBy the end of this journey, i'll be able to give you guys a unique, honest take on something that I've obsessed over for the past 10 years.
That something is this: "Do tall guys really have if it that much harder or are average and slightly below average guys just defeatist whiners blaming there perceived "shortcomings" - Pun intended haha! on something arbitrary like height.
Either I'll look back on this surgery and wonder why I was a huge idiot, or wonder why I didn't do it sooner and loose a little bit of faith in humanity. Either way, YOLO!
Overall, this trip has been massive life-fuel. It's hard not to be motivated with all the beautiful russian girls around me. Motivation to get, fit, rich, ripped and bring my A-game in all aspects of life is on point. I've got a stomach bug, most likely from the water here. I've felt pretty mentally down for a while now, so sorry if this post comes off as cold, psychopathic or negative -that is not who I am.
Mental blues are from one of three causes without a doubt:
1) Haven't gotten laid since December (I stopped trying and gave up on women) They would only distract me and pull me further from this goal. On the plus side I have been porn and self-abuse (masturbation) free for over two weeks now. It feels good, most sxxual dysfunction nowadays is caused by those proceeding two factors.
2) Low Testosterone - Low testosterone will make you feel like sh**t. I'm not sure but I'm almost positive my results would come back low like they did last year. Trust and believe testosterone is what gives you a can do, take on the world attitude.
3) Accident f**Ked my brain up badly. I hope it's not this but I haven't ruled out TBI.
4)Jet Lag - moved from Colorado to DC, then DC to Russia. In addition, high altitude may have caused long term health complications.
First, Russia is a paradise IF one has Western levels of income. If I had passive or geo-arbitraged income, I would stay as long as I could here, even with the difficulties that come with learning a new language at an older age. The amount of attractive woman compared to the USA is easily 10:1. I know I wouldn't have believed it myself before I came here.
Young women + Average guy being poor = less competition if you are an above average guy with western income in a former communist state.
People say Russia is restrictive, but at least in Russia I don't have to be politically correct and endorse mental illness and magical thinking to keep a roof over my head. That's a police state right there. Trying to police the thoughts people can have and ban them from stating the raw truth. Aka
"wrong-think" ala 1984
An epiphany came to me. Leg Lengthening is like weightlifting & bodybuilding at the gym. Every man gets into lifting weights to make himself more attractive to women. Whether he realizes it or not. Limb lengthening is the same. On a conscious or unconscious level the primary function of all mammals is to reproduce & procreate.
First, I want to say something. Know that you don't have to fix the world, you only need to fix yourself. I mean this holistically.
It isn't your job to cure heightism. It's your job to live your life to the fullest, and that's it. In fact,
Frankly, I am glad this surgery is painful, unknown and expensive in most places, and most people think it is crazy. I hope it stays that way. Other men, and lesbians are your competition, and you would do well to never forget that. The reason things have gotten so tough for the average man in the west is because of other men. Other men illegally crossing the border, coming on HB-1 visas to steal American jobs for $30,000 a year or coming legally to build a new life - at our expense. The end result is all the same: more competition for scarce resources, (money & women). Beautiful women in a country where the average woman is an obese, entitled 164 lbs at 5'4. USA would need to ban MALE immigrants to fix this problem - a demographics problem.
They steal the food that belongs on your plate. They have the gall to look you in the eye, piss on your boot and call it rain. The more men and man hating dykes that get the surgery, the harder things will get with regards to dating. I never realized how big of a shortage of fit, attractive women the USA has until I touched down in Russia and they were everywhere.
No wonder American woman have such inflated egos and self-esteem. Due to the shortage their ego and perceived value goes up.
Let me state that the above statement has nothing to do with race - there are good and bad people of every race and gender and I have friends & had girls of every color and creed. Good is good bad is bad. People, much like assh0les, come in a variety of shapes and sizes.
Update:
I may have freaked out a bit, because the situation has improved A LOT since I posted yesterday.
TLDR; Visa isn't banned yet - at least not for me - and I should be able to afford everything.
Continental Breakfast at the hotel was great.
1) I'm still able to withdraw rubles from an ATM. I withdrew about $1000 USD worth of rubles yesterday.
2) - The Surgery is significantly cheaper than I thought would be. I'm not going to go into specifics. I will be able to cross lengthen - especially since I was able to withdraw additional " HAPPENS funds."
Responses to Posts:
3) - Zaozari. Worst case scenario if crapIF I would either go monk mode and lay low in a rental and have a close Russian friend bring food while I devoted 100% of my time and effort to optimizing my blog. Ferry to Finland has crossed my mind as well as Train to Kazakhstan -> Fly to USA.
4) - Medium Drink of Water
Your comment made me remember the scene from the first Matrix! When Switch shakes her head right before Cypher unplugs her. Still a masterpiece. The older I've gotten the more I identify with Cipher.
Blood Money?
Right now I love Russia and Russians a whole lot more then the US Healthcare System. Everyone in the USA is just one medical emergency away from a bankruptcy. Everything is not as it appears. There are three sides to every story: Side A, Side B and the truth. Western News is very biased.
In the interest of total honesty, let's say the surgery was performed by a doctor who was directly under a warlord who was a very bad man and massacred dozens of innocent people.
I wouldn't lose a wink of sleep over it....in fact I've been sleeping like a baby. Those same "
innocent women" wouldn't be giving me the time of day in the USA - in fact they would be giving me dirty looks and turning their nose up at me as they ran off with taller, richer, more melanin deficient men.
Russian people cannot be judged as a monolith but must be looked at individually. From what I have seen average Russian is actually better then the average American.
I don't have to look behind my back as much as I do in certain "culturally enriched" parts of the USA.
People should learn the benefits of selective empathy in this world. Once the USA started to be selectively empathetic with lawbreakers and became the Nanny Mother Teresa of the world instead of Uncle Sam...that's when things started to slide down for you , me and Average Joe.
I can't help everyone, nor is it my job or responsibility to. It sucks for them, but let's be real here for a moment - society doesn't give a sh**t about male suffering. Ukranian boys are being forcibly drafted while the women are sent to the US and Western Europe. I can't imagine a worse fate. Being forced to die on a cold front line for a puppet while the women you should have been dating are most likely getting plowed by other men.
It shouldn't need to be stated but here are my personal thoughts:
A) Average Russian has nothing to do with the current situation -
Believe a quarter of what you hear and less then half of what you see. Nobody is rioting. There are no lines to ATMS. There are no people out rioting. Just many normal people out and about living life.
If I was able to make a few thousand dollars a month remotely I would stay in Russia indefinitely. The women here are much more beautiful, submissive, not obese, not man-hating, not trying to act masculine and down-to earth and approachable. The cancer of gynocentrism has not yet steeped into Russian culture. Thank God for that. If you brought that same girl into the USA she would probably become stuck up and high and mighty within a few years. Classic supply and demand.
The people are united on an ethnic & country front. Frankly, they JUST HAVE a higher IQ then the average Amerimutt.
In fact I would argue before this crisis and even now St.Petersburg is much safer then many US major cities. Russian people are less prone to commit robbery and violent crimes then many people in the USA. Subway security is top notch.
Highest - Blunt and to the point I like it.
Backup Plan's are nothing more then an excuse to fail. I previously stated I would rather be homeless and tall then live in short man's hell every-day in a nice home. You're right, I'm not rich. $20,000 is nothing.
Here is my backup plan. I have blood, blood that cares about me and would help me out if I needed it. In addition, last year I met a girl off tinder. She had a bad alcohol problem. Well, I helped her go to rehab, she got her life together at a halfway home, and now she is successful. She offered to send me crypto this morning. We aren't romantic anymore but on good terms.
The answer is: God, Blood & Ride or Die Friends & Girls. Here's the other thing. I'm a little bit crazy. You have to be crazy to drown out all the background noise and the naysayers trying to talk you out of doing something. Especially when you know it's risky.
I spent my early twenties addicted to video games and procrastinating. This last year and half is when I got my collective together as a man - especially financially wise. When I look back at it, playing video games and internet surfing are both forms of escapism. Just like a drug habit. People don't try to escape their realities unless they suck.
Your question has made me think so I'll give one more answer.
Take a look at this study when you get a chance.
Money doesn't matter as much as you think it does with women. I've learned this by experience and observation.
Women would rather date a broke tall guy they are actually attracted to then a rich short guy. The study backs this up - 50%
In fact, let me take it a step further. If you have to lead with your wallet, your possessions and finances from the get-go, then its
OVER for you, at least with that particular girl. Plenty of guys in the Silicon Valley lead with there wallet. Educated, nice guys. But none of that matters if another person is not PHYSICALLY attracted to you, I'm sorry to say.
Finally, let me say this honestly. A part of me is motivated by anger and revenge. It's stupid that a low IQ thug should get handed the love and affection from women because of a few centimeters of bone. But that's how it is. Plays out
I need to get the most morale, revenge on my ex- living well.
Best way to do that? Get tall, swole and rich and take some pics that display high social proof/ or closing with women that look better then her. It's an EGO thing. I want her to feel like she missed out. Her social circle follows me on IG & I know she stalks me. Word will get around the grapevine.
Backup plans are excuses to fail. Let's say I had played it safe and just waited - I would have gotten older, more depressed, more afraid, more despondent. I would have had to find a new career all over again as well.
I would have continued to have to constantly be walking on eggshells and be excellent in almost all areas to get what a tall man gets for free.
Bodybuilder is the Plato/Aristotle of these forums - pretty much everything he's said regarding people, career and dating is spot on.
I lost my job at the worst time, and it was my own fault. I was working so much and so worked up about this neurosis that it ended up putting me in a negative headspace - that cost me big time. That's what happens when you work all the time and don't get laid.
My finances do need to come up - I'm not getting any younger and money and the cost of living aren't getting any cheaper.
I'll keep you guys updated - The surgery has been pushed forward to March 10th at 12:00 PM.
In response to ZAOZARI:
Like you said, it's not blood money. The only blood money is the money-grubbing colluding Western Doctors who are conspiring to price fix. I'm glad the surgery is costly now that I am here though. If it was cheap & easy every man would get it and things would be even harder.
Think about it:
For the cost of Western leg lengthening in the west you could buy a house or apartment in some parts of the country.
Let's talk hypothetically for a moment here. Let's say Limb Lengthening was a magic spell that required a human sacrifice (or 10, or 20, or 50 random strangers.) I think most people, if they are being honest would still go through with it.
Hopefully conflict ends soon as they are innocent & they are actually too high IQ and very high genetic quality all around swell people.
At the end of the day my mindset is and must be :
Put your own life mask on first, you can't help everyone nor is it your job or responsibility to. Many things in this world are not as they should be.
From what I've already heard, gasoline is up and prices on everything will be coming up. Now is the time to get on your grind.
At the end of the day, this post isn't designed to be a generic diary. It's designed to get you feel, critically think, realize life is a competition, there are no rules, life isn't fair. Play to win.