Day 353 (Day 195 Post clicking)
Happy new year everybody!
My last update was November 19th and things where looking really good then, and my progress until December 1st was speeding up..... but then....
I got the FLU virus and this one hit me like nothin before it. I was basically knocked out bed and sofa prone for three weeks! I can't remember ever being as sick as I was, and laying down for three weeks straight with not exercise or stretching felt like a huge step back.....
All in all I lost about a month where I did not have any progress, three weeks sick and about a week and a half to get back to where I was before I became sick. So the past month has been really hard and again I lost hope - which is so easy to loose during this process. My goal for walking normal on my one year anniversary of the surgery is not looking realistic, since that date is two weeks away. It is just really hard having lost a whole month when things where looking so good!
But on a positive note, my duck ass is still improving and it is the only reason I still can't walk normally. Here is pic from yesterday:
https://freeimage.host/i/HuVgvujIt is still apparent under the mirror and when I walk, but standing with clothes it is hard to see. But I seen good progress lately with getting rid of it completely.
BUT NOW FOR A HUGE MILESTONE!
During the whole lengthening process and until yesterday I haven't had a drop of alcohol (or I had half a beer on Christmas) because I didn't want to drink while on crutches (which I stopped using November 16th). Though the Betz bone is strong and full weight bearing, you still feel very fragile before your bones start to consolidate. After having said no to almost every social event the past year which included drinking I was determined to be able to celebrate new years with my friends at this night club. Even though I have effectively been of the crutches for around three weeks (not including the time I was sick) I was still bound to my car while out and about shopping and doing errands. Yesterday though would be the first time leaving my car behind and also drinking alcohol.
I started the evening with drinking half a bottle of wine before taking an Uber down town to the night club. I was worried that my tolerance would be basically zero after a year without alcohol, but to my surprise I actually had not problem with my tolerance being low - and actually the opposite seemed to be true. I think it has to be down to the fact I have put on around 9-10kgs in weight (new bone, new muscle, etc) when growing 11,5cm.
I was able to get to the club, stand in the que, find my friends and party until the late morning - not getting home before around 06:00. Before taking a taxi home I even walked around 400m down this street. All in all, waking around the club, getting to and forth with some walking at the end was actually fine. Yes I am very tired and a little sore today, but everything went better than expected.
Now that was the practical bit, but now I wanna talk about what it felt like going to a night club and being normal height for the very first time in my whole life. First of, standing in the line to get in I suddenly wasn't a midget in an ocean of tall people - I felt normal and equal to everybody else. And my first experience of "normal privilege" (hoping to coin that phrase, haha) was when paying to get in this girl about two meters to my left shouted out "hey, I'm in front of you in the line", I then look over at here, smile, laugh and say "that doesn't even make sense, you are way over there, but nice try. Next time though I'll let you sneak in in front of me" She replied with smile "okay, that's a deal". It is not the first time girls have flirted with me like that, but I wasn't expecting it to happed within the first five minutes of getting there.
During the evening I had two beautiful women who where very interested in me, one of actually got quite a bit mad because I seemed rather casual about the whole thing. Again, it's not the first time two beautiful women have shown interest in one evening - last time was the time I met my ex for the very first time. But its not something I experience often, and again I wasn't expecting to happen the first time taking my new height out for a drive!
All in all I felt more positive vibes and responses from women in general getting more smiles than usual. Also walking around in the night club and on the dance floor being normal height was awesome, and being taller than most women even those in heels felt awesome. This was is of course just one night out, so the sample size is tiny - so I am very curious to see what my experience will be moving forward.
With that being said though, I have almost two decades of experience with going out and know what to expect - last night seemed to be one of the best in that regard. I've written here before about my appearance and my experience - and how those two have been further apart than what one would expect. There should be a direct correlation between your looks and how women respond, and in my case I have concluded that my old height was the missing variable that "messed" up the results. And yesterday what the first time in my life I felt that my experience finally matched my appearance.
I am not trying to brag or tut my own horn here, so again I do apologize if I come across that way. My whole life I have been told positives things about how I look, but that often hasn't matched my experience with women. In my experience only about 1-2 out of ten women have responded as expected, but this also fits well with studies done on the subject. My point here is that if you are an average looking man (which most are by definition) and you struggle with attracting women I truly believe most of than resistance comes from being short. It is too early to tell from personal experience yet, but there are many studies on this. I truly believe if you can get close to average height in your country and have average looks you will dramatically improve your success with women.
Even though I still walk kind of funny, am not in quite as good shape as before surgery, and haven't updated my wardrobe for my new height yet - yesterday was the first time out and about I felt like a complete human being. A normal person equal to most others, and it felt great.