I'm just wondering how that worked, seeing that you said you did drugs, barely slept and ate one meal a day. Did you parents never try to intervene? What about doctors or teachers?
I don't know how to explain it, my relationship between my parents was not normal. I never fought with them but I never spoke to them a lot. They had grown older because of raising my brother so they did not have enough energy left for me. My sister however did speak to them because she's naturally more of an extrovert. I was the total opposite. They did not know who my friends were, what my personality was and what I liked. I was so distant from them. I think it was neglect and carelessness but partially my fault too because I never said anything and addressed my problems and due to this growing up my parents did not really worry about me. It's extremely difficult to explain and I don't expect people on this forum to understand it.
I rarely talked to my siblings because we just can't stand each other. In High school I was a nobody and quite unpopular so teachers wouldn't give a and I told my friends but realistically speaking they couldn't do anything. Doctors? I didn't go to the doctors for a very long time because my parents never suspected anything and as I said previously they didn't care too much about me and I never expressed my wishes to them.
I eventually was able to do stuff by myself once I was around 17. I didn't need my parents as a middleman for me to get diagnosed because in my country you're allowed to apply for the national healthcare services at that 15 (but I came to be aware of this at 17). I went to a doctor myself and did an x-ray, they told me my plates have fused and the last time my parents took me to the doctors was at the age of 12. They told me my height recorded back then was 169.5 (it was on their system) and now it was 170. Honestly the doctor had such a nice vibe so I doubt my height was fully 170 and she didn't want to make me upset so she rounded it up. She informed me that I dropped so many percentiles in height and I couldn't do a HGH treatment because they only do it for children that haven't gone through the puberty process.
Trust me it was not easy to digest. I was so sad and furious for like 2 months, and till this day I still haven't fully accepted what happened.
My stature wasn't due to my poor genetics but rather a mix of neglect and a poor lifestyle. I was also a coward and spoke to no one about it because it would be "weak" and boys are supposed to be stronger than that and deal with everything themselves.
The day of the X-Ray results came,
"Sorry Audous, but it is unlikely you will ever gain another growth spurt as your bone age appears to be 19 years old but you are the age of 17 years and 1 month. Is there anything else you'd like to ask me?"
I replied "No, that's fine". I obviously wasn't fine.
That statement the doctor said will stick with me forever; the day at the doctors office will be something that I'll never forget. Caused me lots of pain from the already gone pain I was dealing with.