First off, please don't judge me. While I have some decent experience with pain (which I'll talk about below), I've never had surgery before...so I can't help but be nervous about this procedure (Precice 2, internal femurs). Even though I'm doing it with the arguably the best doctor out there, I'm still nervous about it all. I chickened out last time (partially due to my some family members' horrible reactions), and really regretted it, so now I'm on the waiting list for a new date (hopefully within the next month or so).
I've broken my left ankle twice in my life. One of the times I broke it, the doctor actually set it while I was wide awake...that was the worst pain I ever felt, though it only lasted for like 10-15 seconds. He actually set it wrong (lovely), so I had general anesthesia, and they set it right (non-surgical). Then, I was in a car accident years later. Was in the back of an NYC cab, and the cab ran a red light, and crashed into a lamppost...got me a nice concussion. So I know what pain feels like, which makes me fairly confident I can deal with this upcoming pain (at least the first horrible week/2 weeks).
I've noticed that I'm particularly nervous about this at night. But then again, everything seems much worse at night. Sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night to take a piss (which I do fairly often), I think to myself "things like this that I take for granted are not going to be fun while doing LL." Nevertheless...having experienced the extreme disappointment in myself (and the notion of dealing with height disphoria the rest of my entire life) for missing the last date I had, I don't want that to happen again. I genuinely feel I'll be fine once it's over and done with...I just need to get there lol