I wrote this over the course of the week so it might have wrong past/present tenses
Good news & bad news
my health insurance I purchased when I got back scheduled me virtually on zoom to see a doctor who referred me to an orthopedic doctor. I should have been able to see one a while ago but this was the earliest available, and the other in-network doctors were even later appointments ( I only paid a very small amount to see a doctor that my insurance picks, I have blue cross blue shield ). It’s stupid but I cannot see an orthopedic doctor directly, I have to be referred to one by a regular doctor for them to cover it ( they cover 70-80% of orthopedic and X-rays etc )
I went to the ER July 6 to get a free X-ray, I lied and said I bumped my left fixator hard and felt pain and they took an X-ray. I should have said I hit both sitting down or something because they refused to take an X-ray of my right since there wasn’t technically a problem with it. I was reminded of America’s crappy healthcare system, as I waited for 2 hours to see the doctor Then another 2 hours seeing them and getting the X-ray and discharged.
It was very weird seeing the doctor and the radiologist specifically. She seemed to guess why I had them on when she saw the fixators and the length of the bone gap. She poked questions constantly like “so why do you have fixators on” and stuff like that. I said it was to correct a deformity but they knew it was BS lol but they didn’t say so, they just kept asking me what deformity, I said very bowed femurs and I was kind of dodging/BSing them. Me personally, I don’t care for peoples opinion especially ones I will not see again so what does it matter.
I could have waited to get an X-ray or paid for one but I really wanted to see the X-ray of my left femur it’s been a while since the correction.
Plus I thought they were going to X-ray both legs, which would have been 350-450$ out of pocket. If I knew they were only going to do left I would have just done it myself. They said it looked fine and no problems at the ER. This is a picture of it taken 6 days ago, they didn’t measure the bone gap.
I should be or very close to 5cm in X-ray
https://imgur.com/gallery/Pi95pXFHowever there was a problem they didn’t point out which was really stupid of them. I didn’t see the X-ray copy until a few days ago and freaked out because the side view of my femur shows bone split. I literally freaked out However after seeing the orthopedic doctor today she said it is fine and will heal normally back to straight on it’s own, as did doctor buldu. I’m guessing it fractured from correction surgery, I don’t know.
My nerves skyrocketed but calmed down now after the doctor I saw today said it’ll be fine. However it is a problem when I take my fixator off I am not 100% sure it will be able to support my weight at the top end.
It’s always one thing after another in my case.
https://imgur.com/gallery/DAd8bqmmy terrible knee pain went away a week ago, after resting/icing/and most important staying off any strenuous activity on my right leg. I think what caused it was I would flip to my stomach or back, on the right side only. it never hurt to put body weight on the fixator but it caused the knee pain for sure from putting tension/weight on the fixator. The oral medicine voltaren/diclofenic sodium does not work good, but the cream version is amazing for the knee pain, it’s prescription only but my grandmother gave me hers, she doesn’t use it.
Mentally I am at a 8/10 pain level at times. I have major anxiety, it feels like I am holding my breath even when I am breathing. Especially at night.I haven’t had a comfortable sleep in months. I hate life at the moment, but am grateful it is not worse. I would give 1000$ to have just a week of good night sleep on my side. I am more comfortable here back in the states for sure, but being crippled with no comfort 24/7 due to these fixators has F’d my mind. If I don’t take a Xanax sometimes I feel like I am going to burst. The other night I punched my metal bed frame and cut my hand a little while sitting in bed.
Life sucks, but at least it’s not worse thankfully. I should be taking my fixators off end of this month however it seems like forever away and I am not even sure if I will be able to take off the left side yet.
2 of my pinsites got infected a few days ago and have been hurting terribly, my bottom left and my top right. I started antibiotics today, I can’t straight my right leg because it hurts so much at hip area, the muscle by pinsite is painfully swollen/inflamed. Hopefully will clear up in few days with antibiotics