Hi LL veterans,
I have looking into doing this since over a decade. But I have been putting it off due to anxiety. I have even booked and cancelled the surgery. I can't forget the surgery and move on. And I can't get myself to do it. I am stuck in this middle state, unable to mentally function normally.
I probably suffer from generalized anxiety disorder where I imagine the worst outcome of taking any decision. Doing any type of surgery is new to me. With LL, I constantly think about fat embolism, infection, blood vessels bursting during surgery, amputation, prosthetics, etc. Irrational, but I can't control this.
So I have decided to get one leg done at a time. Left femur first and then right femur (or the other way haha).
Benefits
I have to be worried about one leg at a time. Lesser at stake. Worst thing that happens would happen to one leg. I still have a good leg. If LL is my worst decision ever, I will have one good leg and can still live independently. I can finally get past this nightmare of having to decide whether to do this procedure or not.
Now I do know the disadvantages of doing one leg at a time:
* 2 surgeries. 2 times anesthesia. 2 times first 2 week horror.
* longer duration of pain
* I can't really walk until both legs are equal length. I must use insoles or lifts on the shorter leg.
* if one leg goes smooth, the other leg might not. at what length do I stop with the first leg?
* I am CREATING a deformity by lengthening the first leg. I am knowingly creating a discrepancy with the goal of fixing it later.
* 2x the costs for surgery, travel, hotel, whatever else that needs to be repeated
The doctor advises against this. He says it's better to do both at the same time and stop whenever and be done with it. I agree, but can't get myself to do it. I will spend another 10 years on this forum reading every word and still not be done with it.
People who have done LL, please let me know your opinions. Is this doable? Please don't tell me how it's faster to do both together, I know that haha. Do you see any major problems of doing one side at a time that would make you advise me to not do it at all?