Hello LL community,
Thank you for reading this post. As the title suggests, I am not in a very good state. My goal was 8cm with my femurs and I am now worried I may have to call the whole thing off. I'd great appreciate any advice you LL veterans out there could provide.
A bit about me:
I was set to have my surgery in late March in New York City, everything seemed great. I had organized everything (time off from one of my jobs, the slow season for my other job, moving to a more appropriate apartment in February to prepare for recovery, dealing with insurance, buying the necessary auxiliary products such as a laptop stand, etc) A lot of planning was done. Then, as we all know, the worldwide pandemic hit, and two weeks before my surgery was scheduled, it was postponed indefinitely. I was stunned and broken. I just felt like a zombie for days on end. I was hoping it would be changed soon but months passed and by now I should have been about 2/3 of the way through the distraction phase. What a dream that would have been.
Last week, I finally received an email that my surgery was ready to be rescheduled. But at some point 2 months ago, in preparation for my surgery I ripped my hamstring stretching. I am normally a hyper-flexible guy. I can stretch and touch not only my fingers, but I could even reach my wrists all the way to the floor while standing straight, but I wanted to take it even further, and I pushed it too far. I thought nothing of the hamstring pain at first, I thought it would go away long before my surgery would be rescheduled. But here I am 2 months later and I am unable to stretch my right hamstring without pain. I feel like I've tried everything, but the tear must have been worse than I thought. I will call a hamstring specialist tomorrow but I feel there's not much he could really do.
If I could safely reschedule my surgery for 3 weeks from now I would be relieved, but I fear the idea of having to postpone my surgery again indefinitely because of a stupid mistake I made would be too overwhelming for me. Yesterday I actually sobbed at the thought of that. I really feel the need to get it done now for 2 reasons: 1) Now would be the safest time to get it while the pandemic has weakened before it's predicted to come back in a resurgence in September and last throughout the winter ; 2) My insurance will eventually expire in early 2021 which would make the whole process too expensive.
I just feel beaten once again, and am looking for some information on how to go forward. The daredevil in me wants to do everything I can to get my right hamstring in the best position possible and do the surgery 3 weeks from now, but I shudder at the thought of that causing intolerable pain and limiting my ability to reach 8cm. If I had to stop the distraction phase early because of that, I think I might resent myself for the rest of my life. Do any of you LL veterans out there think a goal of 8cm would be possible going into this with a hamstring injury? I know it's a tough question, but any ideas would help.