I did the same, but now there is no recompense for that, I did LL but it still cannot give me what I couldve gotten from natural growth ofcoarse. You see the natural growth is very proportional. I did about 2.2inches ll and i believe I lost around 2.5-3inches in my growing years definetely. Loosing more than that doesn't make sense to me because my genetic potential was around 5'11 max anyways but i ended up 5'8.
I did gain back through ll and its unproportional(concentrated in lower limbs) but hey atleast it got me taller. The main culprits during the puberty years and throughout teenage were 4 factors. Mediocre Nutrition, Poor sleep, minimal exercises and stressful environment. Stress and nutrition has the biggest role, it basically suppresses the testosterone levels by producing more cortisol. And lower T-levels mean lower bone growth because lower growth hormones factors influenced.
The biggest regret is missing out on natural growth. yea ll may have given me back 80% of my missed vertical growth but thats the thing, growth energy isnt all targeted at height only. the hormones/energy is utilized for lengthening arms, fingers, feet, spine, clavicle, shoulders, ribcage everything at the same time and height is just a part of it. so basically it just grows the whole frame proportionally, even growing facial bones and improving the facial symmetry and aesthetics. It growns the organs, brains, hearts etc aswell. its not overhauled.
Loosing 2-3 inches may not sound much, but considering its a result of loosing bone/muscle mass proportionally throughout the human frame, not just the vertical length of bones. Its like a 10 year old boy vs a 25y old man. he aint just taller but bigger overall.
gaining back something from cll be it unproportional atleast mends the wound caused by missed growth during teenage based on genetic potential. thts y i always advice growing youngsters to not make the same mistakes.
What you said is deep and profound u might or might not've realised. Forgiving is really difficult, but you must forgive yourself and accept this fate. I forgave myself long ago i remember even before i ever planned on cll but now even after cll, sometimes, the past still haunts me. But what is the only recompense is I pour this knowledge to the teenagers who matter to me and save them especially in this electronic and stressful era. The regrets grow less on me every year and I accept who I am.