4+ Year Update.
In summary, I'm fully satisfied and thankful I did LL. It is one of the most bizarre, risky, challenging, crazy, yet rewarding and transformative things I've done in my life.
I originally made this diary to share my experience and try to provide raw insights into the LL journey to help prospective LLers decide if LL is right for them. Was feeling a bit nostalgic on New Years and decided to drop by and share my experience 4 years post op to give folks a very long term view of this experience.
Life 4 years after LL
I am 100% free of height dysphoria to the point where I never think about height. At all. Thinking back to life 4 years ago, height dysphoria and LL went from being this all consuming thing that defines your life to now, being just a blip in your past. A distant memory. Life truly goes on and so do you.
My height is now just another normal, boring part of my identity. I used to be 5'9. I'm now 6 ft. I don't even remember being 5'9. I don't even think about being 6 ft now. This is just who I am and it feels normal.
I'm now in a long term relationship with a great girl. I don't think I'd have this kind of relationship today had I not done LL. Not because I'm taller now and therefore conventionally more attractive, but because when I had height dysphoria, I was so self consumed in my own personal height neurosis that I wasn't in the right state of mind (i.e confident) to be in a healthy relationship with another person.
Family, friends, and coworkers who knew me before LL definitely register something different about me post LL. Again I did the maximum femur amount allowed by Paley of 8 cm / 3 inches. I would say 30 to 40% of them vocalize it, while others just stare for a bit. Although LL has become more mainstream in recent years, I still believe people don't presume you had LL, it's just not at the forefront of their mind when they see you. Rather, they think to themselves they may be misremembering, you've lost weight, etc. I usually just shrug it off and smile about it if it comes up (rare). I remember worrying about people noticing so much pre LL, and now I realize people don't think about you as much as you think they do, or, I just don't care.
Physical Status:
Day to day life: I feel completely normal on a day to day basis (e.g walking around town, working, sitting, standing, hiking, etc).
Athletic abilities: I would estimate I have about 70% of the athletic ability I had pre op although I'd attribute a portion of that to aging as I go through the middle aged stage of my life. My glutes are probably my weakest area. The biggest athletic decline would be my reduced ability to burst/ sprint during sports and my reduced stamina.
Scarring: Unfortunately my scars are still visible which is partially just a result of my ethnicity and skin color. I have other friends who did this who have had much better scar healing. I'm considering doing laser treatment. It's not terribly noticeable, although I've had a few intimate partners ask me where the scars came from.
Numbness in my shin has completely gone away
Financial Status
I am in the best financial health of my life. Before I did LL, I was concerned the pause in my career and cost would set me back. 4 years later, I've hit an all time high with my net worth, and have exceeded the financial goals I had originally set out for myself for this age. My salary earnings are the highest they've ever been, and I've consistently invested in equities and real estate since doing LL which has potentially set myself up for an early retirement.
The cost of LL was relatively high but insignificant in the grand scheme of things. Interestingly enough, I believe in a way I've "profited" from LL because I was able to reallocate a significant amount of time that I spent dealing with severe height dysphoria (countless hours) towards my career, investing, diversifying my income streams, and mental health.
My advice to prospective LL candidates
Life is too short to spend your precious time on this planet worrying about being too short. However, this doesn't mean I am always an advocate for doing LL. I recommend freeing yourself of something as debilitating as height dysphoria by any means necessary.
I think LL is an extreme, relatively risky, high commitment, high cost procedure that should only be done as a last resort after careful consideration of the risks and benefits. You should first try to address height dysphoria through therapy or self improvement, and if that doesn't work, well only then consider LL.