Hey, tiggy. Thank you very much for the diary. Very kind of you to share your experience with us here. Wishing you the best of luck through the entirety of your CLL journey.
Do you want to share more on how you came across CLL, your motivations for it, and what made you decide to finally go with it?
All the best, man.
MLA
Hey man, thanks for your wishes. Sure thing.
I wanted to do LL because at my height of 5'3 life isn't easy. Other males don't take you very seriously and overall I just felt insecure around other men and women who were taller than me. After this surgery I will hopefully be 5'6 and while that is not tall or even average for males in US, it is still a decent height when wearing shoes. Even with regular dress shoes I would be 5'7 and to me that is a decent height. Moreover, I would no longer stick out in the crowd as the shortest guy, and that, in and of itself, means a great deal to me.
I first learned of LL about 7 yrs ago, I believe it was from the old forum community site. Back then I had no means to go forward with it but I knew I would proceed with the surgery some day. But through all these years I frequented both the old forum community and this site to learn as much as I could about the procedure. Fast forward to present time, my plans were to have the surgery next summer. However, about 3 months ago a close family friend was diagnosed with a brain tumor at a very young age. This came as a wake up call to me. I knew I couldn't postpone the surgery any longer because I did not want to have any regrets in my life when my time came. I know this is very morbid but it's the truth. I also realized that waiting another year made little sense because if I did LL now, by next summer I would be healed and could just move on with my life. Plus it would give me 1 extra year to enjoy my new height. When one thinks of it that way, it all starts falling into place.
I also knew that I had to have this surgery because it was eating me alive, it was constantly on my mind everywhere I went. It became a disease and I just had to get it out of my mind by taking the plunge. All these things ultimately led me to where I am today. This is not to say that I wasn't scared of the surgery. I was immensely afraid of complications and pain. But after that incident with our family friend, I knew all of those things were secondary because we only get 1 chance in life to make the most of it. And in theory most people already know this, and I did too 4 months ago, but when something truly horrific happens to a close family member or a friend, it really changes your perspective. Theory no longer mattered when it wasnt accompanied by action. So I had to act.
Anyway that's my story. Sorry for the long write up but I hope it was useful to you or others reading.