I know!! the steroids get me angry lol
And maybe u r right, im trying to tell my self all these lies so maybe one day my thoughts will fix my legs and will make me GOD. I think reporti g to one forum is enough. Plus I dont like old forum since every time i post there no one replies to me, but here at least i entertain my self talking back to the trollers lol
I think if someone is interested in LL they will find me anywhete and will read every single diary regardless where it is.
Im glad there are some crazy people like me up there, and smart enough to see things for what they are not for what they seem.
The fact that i took and take my time to write this diary with vedios pictures etc.. of my life has to count for something, i hope lol
Im not so active here lately but i hardly doubt there are many diaries who have the real documented information of LL experience and post LL as I do. There are but not many. And yes it is true i many times post my opinion and things outside LL but all counts since LL is a big part of my present life. And this is a diary not a manual of what you should or should not do. I dont talk to talk i walk to walk. And i post what i think its important and relevant to post, and that is all i want to do. And thank you for talking to me whatever negative comments u have to say. At the end of the day in days like today when i feel like coming to the forum, you give me a reason to post something and entertain my brain at least for a minute or so.
And as taller said : You dont need to be negative to be truthful., i couldn't say that any better!! Learn from people! Dont waste yr time pointing fingers to validate your own insecurities.
I have a friend from LL who awhile ago told me "i wouldn't wear lifts it's like lying yo your self, it's not real" and months later gess what... he was going to the clubs with lifts and he felt better and even hooked up with few girls, and even had sex... become a better version of your self, to do that you need to drop your false believes, be humble and learn from people.
Tomorrow maybe i will have an accident and maybe i will not walk again, now only i will decide if that will be a problem in my life or not. That doesn't mean i will walk but that means i will not allow my self to be miserable because of it. If you do not understand what im trying to say im really really very sorry. But i wouldn't be surprised either if you don't. I have faith everyone has their chance to wake up in life I hope to all LLers will not let it pass. From june of 2013 though may of 2014 were the best months of my life!!! I love my time in Russia, i love Dr. Barinov and everyone there from my heart. Im not saying by any means that i think Barinov is the best doctor, i never said that. People twist words to validate their opinions. Just like people think im lying to my aelf by been positive. I dont expect everyone to understand me but the ones who do. Really good for you! You are probably the crap! God mode i call it! And people who do not get me or think im a fool, im almost 100% sure, they are unhappy with their life and always will be that way until they decide to change.
Love to all. But don't get it wrong even with my cripple legs i can beat the crap out of most of the population in the word, yeah that's my ego talking hahaha... like Connor mcgregor said : "im cky and confident in prediction, but im always humble in victory" kisses babes!!!
I apologies for my writing it's kinda hard to do it well from my phone lol i hope it's good enough.