So quick update::::
legs are slowly getting better, very very f**king slow!!!!! specially my left leg is very stiff and in pain when I walk. I can't walk as I use to. My walking is still bad specially after long walks. Most of the time I use one crutch.
Im living with my mom!! the days go by very f**king slow!!!! I don't have a car anymore so I depend on my sister and mother to give rides!!! and where I live now if I want to go anywhere I must have a car!!!! I wouldnt say my life sucks at all but, from seen people every day, girls and socializing 24/7 to this loneliness!! ahhh it is so f**king difficult to adapt!!!
Im still talking to me "kinda girlfriend from russia" we might meet or not, but Im afraid Im still in contact with her because I have no more beautiful girls around me anymore. So in this sense my life sucks!!
Americans are fat!!! WTF!!!!
Since I got here I realized so many people are f**king fat!!! and I thought I was fat!!! since I got here iv'e seen only 1 or 2 nice girls I need to go out!!! but right now my mobility is so limited. Right now I feel like I want to cry!!! I was the f**king man in Russia!! and here I just have the love of my mother and sister but that's it. I still don't want to see my friends because my walking sucks. I saw 3 friends from work, one told me right away, "you are taller!" hahaha I said really? you are probably shorter and that was it))))
i started going to the gym, feeling better about this. I have a lot to improve body and health wise!!!!!
my left leg is bowed!! I don't like it!!! it is very noticeable! but maybe if I start building some muscles it won't be as bad. But if not, I don't know maybe a good excuse to go to Russia again!!)))) I really want that!!
Im broke as hell but Im taller and I can move around, hopefully I'll get back to normal walking soon. I crave at least this for now so I can socialize again. I don't know why but I feel shy now, introverted!! agrrr!!! In Russia even with frames I was the f**king man!! and now I get so self conscious because of my funny walking. My adaptation to my American life is very very depressing!!
I really don't know how you guys do the hole lengthening alone!!!! that is like suicidal!!!! it is f**king crazy I would shoot my self!!!!!
I was thinking of doing my femurs but just to think that if I do internals I will be alone and s**t there is no way I would waste my life like that!!!!! Maybe I go to germany or something if I can save money.
I feel like there is a hole in my heart, and I feel very similar to when I broke up with my last ex girlfriend!! it is terrible. But the good news is that every time I go through this feelings I come out even stronger and happier than before.
So I can use some love even from you guys ! lol