I know exactly how you feel. I'm also university age and I worry a lot about how long I'm going to have to put it off and how expensive it already is in the United States. I could go to community college for way cheaper but that would only be for 2 years, I definitely want a more advanced degree. Like, do I want to give up 1-3 years of my life doing this LL? And then I have to think about do I really want to be my current height forever now that I KNOW this exists? The answer is hell no, I want to be taller than I am. I hate being short, always pictured myself taller. All my friends are 4+ inches taller than me except for 1 girl who is my exact height but that's it. Plus she has Ivy League level intelligence over me.
I told one of my friends and he's actually quite supportive as long as I can recover and feel better about my height (especially compared to other people). Other than that, that's why I joined this forum, I needed to talk to people who are going through the same stuff as me. I'm still one of the few women set out to do this even so lol.
By dealing, I usually just go through the forum, looking through topics and creating new ones. Or using Airbnb to look for apartments nearby to where I MAY be getting surgery, mostly in Mumbai bcus Parihar has no guesthouse and a hotel would bleed me dry. OR I distract myself with funny YouTube videos and going out with friends. But yeah this whole operation is kind of crazy so you can feel really alone around people thinking about it.
I really appreciate your words. You clearly know how I feel... Sundays are always terrible, somehow. I guess we all are suffering here, since we're accepting such pain and loss of time in exchange of our mental suffering/self-acceptance problem... I usually read posts here but I see people having arguments, being rude, toxic or spreading rumours... We should be more supportive to each other, we all come from the same place (taller, shorter, it doesn't matter: we somehow feel the same way), I envy those who don't seem to care about their height. When I was at my growing age, my father used to stand next to me in front of the mirror to compare our heights, instead of teaching me how to accept myself no matter how I am. I'm not the shortest guy in these forums at all, but I've been teased by a few of those lucky tall guys, heard that height is one of the most attractive things a guy has and people of my height wouldn't be getting almost any attention... At this point, it's not about the respect I get from others nor the attention, it's just about the respect and appreciation I get from myself. I just can't, not anymore. I reject this body and I reject being cursed forever, and I feel like my life would only start once I've had the procedure done. Why would I work out, dress well, etc. if I'll still be the same below average height guy and nothing will change it? By now, I'm working hard on what I call the "intellectual part": studying two degrees, learning many languages and getting as much formation as I can (my growing end age may have arrived but I still have a young, powerful brain). Once I'm done with that, I'll try to get the money (still not sure if I want to ask my family, I may need to move to a foreign country in order to get a job that pays well), and then I'll start the "physical part". I repeat this to myself many times every day, and that's what brings me strength and hope to keep working. If I ever feel complexed, I just think the life I'm currently living is not the life I'll eventually have, everything regardless the "intellectual part" is meaningless nowadays. I guess we all here have a similar "masterplan" structure.
Anyway, thank you for your reply and I really hope you reach your dream, I'm sure you will. If you ever need something, I opened this thread to find people to express ourselves and share thoughts/moral support.
Cheers!
