Being short has made me want to go live in the fking mountains and become a supervillain or monk or something.
Stopped growing in 8th grade. Was 5'3. Normal'ish height I guess. I was popular, I got girls, life was normal. I felt like a regular 13 and going outside to stores and dinner didn't feel that weird. Life was great. But... Every year after that, got much much worse.
After my freshman year of college? Nuh-uh, no way am I going to live fking normal life. I've been rejected by literally 23 girls in a row. No exaggertion, I've spoken to/approached/been introduced to 23 girls and they all just kinda talk to me reluctantly and some don't even make eye contact with me. I'm a good looking dude, not fat, good hygiene, smart, I'm funny, I'm not a fking weird anti-social idiot. And yet I see my fking room mate who's like 5'10 and a fking slob who plays League everyday with no social skills get it in with like every other girl he approaches.
And yes I could probably get it in with some crazy Tumblr bitches who have tattoos already and fking purple/green hair but like what the fk? Like what kind of life is that that's just sad, that's not what I want at all. You know what i mean? Like I would just feel like a huge disappointment for settling for those types of girls.
And look I don't blame those 23 girls for rejecting me either. They all have a plethora of 6'+ guys who want to fk them right now. It's just economics man, I don't blame them, they want to find the best partner both for social and or reproductive reasons. Like it makes sense. It's just like it's economics that i could pull those Tumblr girls, like, we're both at the bottom of the market. My only option is to make crap-loads of money to even remotely have a chance with some semi-hot bitch or become fking Tom Cruise. I would love to do both as soon as possible but I feel like LL would honestly just be a better route.
So I'm fking crazy now. No one takes me seriously. It's almost funny going out in public, the way people look at me. This must be how black people feel. People at airports smile/almost laugh at me, you're not old enough, go get your parents! No joke this has been said to me. I was so pissed. 100's of bullcrap experiences like this.
I haven't had a girlfriend since I was like 16. Hmm... Wonder why.. Maybe cause riiiight at 15-16 every dude hit their growth spurts and all went from being 5'4-5'5 to being 5'9+. Well, whatever.
I'm just waiting till the day I get LL and until then I'm just going to start acting like a fking nutcase to cope with life. Cause honestly, that's how everyone treats me already anyway and I basically already am one. In high school I saw this one dude just fking lose it and tear all his clothes off and run around the halls nked rubbing his dck on the hallways. Srs this actually happened, he was 100% a pretty normal kid though and I guess he just snapped one day because of
. I could totally imagine doing that one day, because fk YOU ALL you already laugh at me anyway so might as well have some fking fun.
What sucks is I still see 5'7-5'9 dudes being called "too short" lmao. Whatever. At 5'3 I'm not even considered "too short" I ams seriously a freak of nature.
So, who wants to go off and start a cult or monk society or some crap? Anyone else feel this way? How have you guys coped? I've tried therapy before but it was just really awkward and the guy just kept repeating what I said in question form like dude, asking questions is not comforting me man.
