Hey everyone, I'm not usually a 'forum' type of guy but here I am, looking for both support and hopefully to help others if I can.
I'm American, mid 20's, and just returned to my apartment in Lecco after having surgery with Dr. Pili in Milan.
I should clarify- I had surgery on Thursday morning, stayed two nights in the hospital, and am now currently sitting on the bed that I occupied as an able-bodied person just a few days back.
I feel a little bit anxious at the moment, as I noticed a 'clicking' type of feeling below by knee at the top of the device- I'm worried I may have walked too aggressively with my crutches from the cab to the elevator, from the elevator to my front door.
I just emailed Dr. Pili, expressing my concerns, and am awaiting his reply.
***Here's my sob story...
Being short, you're never allowed to be the man you really are. Aside from the opportunities we are denied in this world due to our height(I'm 5'7), there have been countless opportunities (women,jobs,etc.) that I chose to walk away from because I could not handle the thought of further embarrassment. As I've read through the forum here (and the old one), I see that we all know these experiences: the disappointed expression of a girl you were sharing eye contact with before as she walks past you and sees your height: comparing your height to every other person you walk by in the streets--taking outrageous paths to make certain you don't have to pass a tall guy: just a general feeling of worthlessness.
Despite all of that, if I could go back in time to Thursday morning when I arrived at the hospital, I would turn around and book a ticket home. This is probably just the anxiety from the "clicking' I keep feeling but I'm kind of having a WTF moment. Too late though, I've got braces on my legs and even if I tell Dr. Pili to just take them off, I'm still looking at several months in casts.
Dr. Pili by the way is a very kind, straight forward man. He and his assistant have gone out of their ways to arrange things for my stay here.
I think I'm just going to chalk this up as a bad day.