I spent the whole of last night and read your diary carefully. Over a year and half... Has it healed.for the most part? I saw your Instagram pics, it looks to me that you are on speedy way towards recovery.
Has the right leg been consolidated? When will you be able o forget about this and move on with the next chapter of your life?
Unfortunately, no I am far from healed and have sought a lot of doctors in various countries. Nobody really knows how to heal me :
My right leg ran away to almost 10cm and there is complete NON-UNION. Nothing is growing or consolidating, so all my 'fake' walking on Instagram are short spurts, not my real life.
My left leg is suffering from overly tight/short psoas/quads/IT band/soft tissues which cause daily knee pain (am still on painkillers) and I cannot straighten my left leg, it's bent at the knee.
Because of these soft tissue shortness, I suffer from anterior pelvis tilt, which causes duck ass (hyper lordosis) and my left leg to turn inwards (valgum). It makes it very difficult for me to walk like a normal person.
Aside from all this, yes there is PTSD from all the trauma, being unemployed, very little finances left, and I just don't know how to get back to normal life, in less than 3 months, I would not be able to pay for my mortgages anymore. This is from someone who had ample savings and trading in 2016 but everything flipped for the worst when I got affected emotionally as well.
NHS wants to open my right leg up and change nails, do a biopsy and bone graft when I get back to London. I just don't know how to face another invasive surgery like this. My 2016, 2017 have been ruined, I just cannot imagine losing 2018 as well but something has to be done (I know
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I keep praying and praying and praying that my right leg will consolidate miraculously (to the point of going today for a 2hr evangelical sermon and being 'healed' by a dubious preacher) and I'm even spending 2 hours a day every morning in a hyperbaric chamber inhaling pure oxygen in the hopes that it will oxygenate my blood and trigger circulation and bone healing. A friend is taking me to Lourdes as well very soon to try for more 'miracles'.
I think the findings are I've very little live cells left where the lengthened gap is on the right leg (and maybe a bony infection that's resistant to antibiotics) and it's near impossible for it to form sufficient calluses to bridge at this point
I'm relying on the 'weight bearing' abilities of the G nail as I've no bones to support an empty 10cm gap. So I hope the pins won't bend, unscrew or the nails break, like in other cases. That's why I'm using crutches religiously and try not to walk 100% unsupported.
I exercise, swim, walk in water, stretch, do yoga for hours every day, hoping that I can speed up some form of recovery, be it muscular, flexibility, bony or stamina. There is A LONG WAYS to go as confirmed by another osteopath I recently consulted. He is equally stumped at how much my surgeries were messed up.
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