I understand where you are coming from; as much as we all here understand the risk we are taking with this surgery. This isn't a simple cosmetic procedure like a nose job: we all know that. If it was it would be one of the most popular and mainstream surgeries out there (like if a magic pill increased your height it would sell like nothing before).
May of us, myself included see it as an investment (and perhaps a bitter pill) for our lives in the future. There's just simply a lot of emotional things going on in the background. Some fear a life of invisibility, social exclusion. Our height neurosis goes to very deep levels. Had I not found LL I honestly don't know what I've be working to in college and my work. Don't get me twisted, I don't have a miserable life by any means; I have plenty of friends and loved ones (although I'm not ready to commit to anyone so I'm not actively looking for someone). But I've never been to confident in my body and how I'm perceived to the rest of the world, and looking into the future at my current height it seems so bleak and pointless. Another way to look at it is that we at least hope that it can remove huge burdens: a social one and a psychological one. The social one being that we don't get either ignored or ridiculed for something we never had control. And the psychological one of always feeling like you're not as good as others or so forth.
Take my comment as you will (I'm a little to sleepy and tired as I'm typing this); as either an emotional ramble or a vague logical attempt to make you understand. Either way, I can at least appreciate that you're reminding me how crazy this is, but I'm still gonna push through.
No problem. I've dealt with BDD myself, maybe that's another reason why I take an interest here and can relate to those desperately looking for "fixes". When you get stuck inside your head, lost in fantasy and daydreams ... imagining all the possible versions of yourself, it's easy to lose touch with reality and convince yourself that you'll be a special case with no problems - despite all the evidence against that happening. It's an illness. Height preferences exist, but the risk/reward ratio of this procedure is so far removed from anything that could possibly be considered reasonable it boggles my mind.
I don't think LL will make you more confident in your body. You'll become obsessed with proportions, your function will be off, and you'll have scars. Don't give yourself all that extra baggage. When you have other things going for you, a nice body is just the icing on the cake. fk bitches get money ... and anyway, will you even be able to train hard enough to forge a nice body after ll? we aren't women, we need to lift heavy crap to build our bodies. To do that you need to be functioning optimally ... dead lifting 50kg, leg pressing 100kg, jogging for a few minutes ... this isn't a recovery, and doesn't cut it if you have aesthetic goals.
SAD - crimson posted that he was still only functioning at 30% of his previous level. He's trying desperately to regain function and is starting to think about worst case scenarios. Hopefully PT will be enough to bring him back to something that resembles his previous level of function.