Who knows maybe those few mm that you didn't get would have opened the floodgates for complications and even worse recovery. Almost every LLer that lengthened big has mentioned how they wished they did less and it could have been you — Leechlet (the guy you mentioned who inspired you) said that less is better in one of his now-deleted youtube videos. Even Apo who was obsessed and encouraged over lengthening now tells everyone to not lengthen too much and "not to be too greedy".
Appreciate the kind words. I had no choice, Dr. G told me to stop, and even if he didn't, clicking had become excruciatingly painful when it wasn't painful at all previously
Still, it just doesn't change the way I feel. I really wanted to close the door on this forever, but since I'm not happy, I feel like I will still have height neurosis. And as we all know, the only way to get taller is to do the horrible process we all know as LL. I just don't know logistically when I could take more time off from work to do another one of these. I thought about re-breaking my femurs next year, but then my proportions would look terrible. So my only options is tibias at this point, which I really did not want to do. FML...
Stop this rubbish mate, you're starting to sound like ItsMyLife the way you're obsessing about nothing.
Your goal was 173CM wasn't it? So then you reached it, this is just the post-LL blues.
I know I'm obsessing, but you wouldn't understand. You already are a decent height, taller than I ever will be. I'm very goal oriented, and really wanted to be a solid 172.72 at night. I'm borderline at best, and terrified of shrinking below it. You'll see - if you ever do LL, for all you sacrifice - you want your goal.
Anyway - I'm going to just focus on recovery for now. I've been walking more, and it's improving. So I guess that's something to be happy about. I just feel like I can't move forward knowing that I didn't finish what I set out to do, but I will keep going.