For the last six months, I was thinking that I’m “okay” I’m fine, and I convinced myself that I don’t need help from anyone, no need to share the secret of having LL with anyone either..
And to be honest, it wasn’t hard a lot, I mean this forum give me strength to do that , and honestly, I don’t know what would I do if I didn’t receive the invitation to LL forum..
But today, it was a different day, and for the first time from 6 months I felt RELIFE that I’m no longer have to carry this pardon all by myself, Now there are someone who sharing that with me.. and to be more specific it’s not a certain person, they’re group of very kind of ppl, whom I really appreciate their help.. and they’re willing to do anything just to make sure, I’m “okay” and safe just as if I was in HOME..
As I mentioned before today I have had an appointment in UAE’s Embassy.. But unfortunately I wake up at 11AM, I have less than 30min to be prepare and go to the appointment.. I called the office and asked if I can come at 12 noon, and they said they’ll call me back, cuz the person whom I’ll meet is having a lot of meetings today, and I’m supposed to meet him in 11:30 not 12..
I know it’s my mistake again, I wonder how many ton of mistakes I could do in such a short time, I just messed up my chance again and all because I slept for an extra hour.. I started to blame myself in how I’m lazy and do all things in a very last minute, when a call interrupted all that, it was the secretary, she told me that her boss will meet me but I have to be there in 12sharp..
Ok I can make it, I dress up so quickly and got ready in 40min, of course my caretaker helped me but 40min is such a short time for someone who is paralyzed… so I got into the cab then immediately to the Embassy.. I reached there at 12:15… entered the building .. the ppl over there welcomed me and was so passionate asking me if I’m okay and what happened to me? And as soon as I started to speak Emeriti they draw a smile on their face and become more welcoming.. you know it’s a different when you’re in foreign country, and when you see someone from your nationality you feel somehow that you belong to him/her.. ~! I don’t know if I was over emotional.. but that’s what I felt at that time..
After 2min the colonel came, he greeted me and asked me how am I doing, I replayed as you see I CANT WALK.. Then I started to talk about my situation, how dr. lied to me about the duration of the treatment and how am I right now paralyzed and in the verge of being broke.. Although, the col. wasn’t so agreed to have LL from beginning but he didn’t talk much about that he focused in my health situation, how he could help, and what the best thing for me to do right now,.. He asked me why didn’t I came from beginning.. where am I staying right now, and who take care of me…
So long story short, they gave me some cash, told me from tmw they’ll start to send my report to another hospital, and they’re thinking of changing my hotel, to be sure I’m staying in clean and safe area.. and asked me to have an escort, I explained that I kept all the thing from my family.. and I want to keep it that way.. but they insist since I’m not in a very good health condition.. so when I went back to hotel I called my sister, told her that I’m disabled because I had a surgery, then she asked if it’s LL surgery (thanx oprah!!! ppl know about LL bcuz of ur show) anyway I answered by yes,, but Don’t Tell Anyone.. she was cool, didn’t nag too much “maybe bcuz it was over the phone” and she said she’ll come whenever I say so.. ..
So In next few days it will be clear for me what will happen next
I may sound so weak and dependent, but yeah I need help now, and it's better to ask for help when you need it..