endomorphisme...................................
it is difficult for me to explain.
but there is a difference with his words and what he really means.
and I don't think you understand it yet.
he I strongly suspect suffers from body dimorphic disorder. his idea of muscular is what you endomorphisime would consider normal.
he also thinks he is a normal weight range which is incorrect. he is 45 kilos. and he sees himself as normal. he is scared of gaining weight just from a growth spurt.
his mind has an incorrect correlation to how he sees weight on people. what we consider normal he considers muscular. this also accounts for why he is soo scared that "he will become massive" just from growing and not even gyming, this also explains why he thinks all gym people who are short are pathetic. he really thinks all short people are pathetic. and he thinks people who have more muscles look even shorter.
I am thinking on f**king up my testoterone levels so I will be able to stunt my shoulder growth
his body dismorphic disorder is so great he is considering destroying his very ability to make testosterone in his body for the rest of his life which will probably result in dying early.
he is so scared of weight that he considers his shoulders abnormal and wants them gone. he is 45 kg......... and wants to loose more weight. specifically so his shoulders can become smaller.
he has not admitted that he suffers from anorexia, specifically I diagnose him as the type of anorexic person who does not admit to wanting to loose weight but really does and gives descriptive dreams such as smaller areas of particular body parts which although not admitting to it, actually is code for loosing weight but he does this so he can maintain that he does not want to loose weight.
it probably stems from his height neurosis, and is so ashamed of his height that he wants to look as tall as possible, this has lead to an irrational fear of muscles and weight, this combined with his body dimorphic disorder has lead to him not realizing that he sees normal as excessive, this leads to him wanting to loose weight and do self harm to his hormone levels.
forgive my short response endomorphisime but I did not explain my self in my last post to everything I saw for my comment.
in short he thinks all men who are short are failures and those who go to the gym only look even shorter and therefore are greater failures for appearing even shorter.
little white man. understand that when people write things and you read them, it allows you to reflect, and only upon reflecting can a person truly get past their problems that they were previously unable to identify. I do this from a position of caring.
