Hey guys, I’m supposed to be a few days away from removal God willing. I was able to also get prescribed more pain medicine after speaking to my insurance, they allowed me a grace fill. Honestly, I feel guilty about exaggeration of pain throughout this process to get more pain medicine, but it’s the only thing keeping my anxiety away. At night it feels like the walls are caving in. It’s that feeling you get when in an MRI or tight space. It’s just enough minor pains and uncomfort to make it impossible to sleep. It’s hard to describe, but mentally I’m at the end of the road the last few weeks, and the only thing that kept me going was the light at the end of the tunnel knowing I’d get these off soon. I might have some underlying mental issue or something because I’ve read of other patients that have had these on for a year and I would never be able to handle that. I’m a pretty normal person but when I freak out, I start freaking out more because I am freaking out, if that makes sense comically
Also I have a herniated disc from when I was hit by a drunk driver some time ago. It didn’t bother me much in normal life but after surgery and sitting down most of the time, the constant minor back pain is debilitating. The opioids are the only thing allowing me to get a good nights rest, otherwise I feel like I had the sleep quality of sleeping in the passenger seat of a car, and feel like an agitated zombie.
It’s like death by a thousand paper cuts. The first dozen are a piece of cake, after 600 you’re begging for mercy and have 400 more to go. Towards the end I had starting turning my fixator faster even after I promised Assayag not to. I just felt like my mental gas tank was almost drained.
I’ve been done with lengthening since 1/13 and the correction since 1/20. Thankfully everything went well even though I’m like 4 weeks ahead of schedule. Assayag is conservative I found out from other people, because another patient who went to another reputable doctor who did everything right (not Assayag, but don’t want to mention who) that did precice and .75mm on tibias developed some nerve damage. Paley and HSS couldn’t even figure out how to fix it. So it’s for good reason he’s conservative. I’m an idiot for turning faster and taking on the risk but going .5 was rough.
All in all, I made it to the end and just need to switch my fixators for a trauma nail.
Assayag is an exceptional and amazing doctor. Truly passionate about what he does, and genuinely has a heart. I had consults with two other US doctors and it just felt like a cash grab. I honestly advise against doing LL if you’re able to find another way to deal with your height insecurity or therapy, but if you’re going to do it, there is no better option in the USA than Assayag. A combination of the HP house, PT, and price, he is almost half the price of other doctors if you factor those in, and they are all overqualified so you’re splitting hairs by looking at credentials. They all handle complex trauma cases and breaks, so starting with a good pair of legs is very easy for them all. There is nearly no difference.