So in the worst case scenario, if LL is NOT an option for you (hypothetically speaking). What will you do? Seriously.
Fillers is a good question. We should do some research and find how many documented cases exist. I read in a paper that in 2015 there were 98 documented cases of this but I do not know how many people got fillers in total to calculate the risk.
Fillers can't even be counted because they do thousands and thousands a day worldwide so the % is low but it exist for a "stupid" procedure like that .
I think you got my point .
When I developed my dysphoria I was aware of why that was happening and it was atrocious, so I looked just for something to escape that feeling and that thing was the surgery .
Back then I was not into it but just wanted to know that If I wanted it , I could change my height .
I was very young and this surgery it's too much to just jump on without years of mental prep (according to me) .
So what would I do?
Idk I should go back 5/6 years and see .
I tried it all back then to avoid this surgery by contacting weirdows with weird theories ,to making x Ray's left and right hoping for opening growth plates .
Researched for growth plates ,stem cells etc.
I realized I was very vulnerable as a person and out of my mind .
When I found the price of the surgery first thing I said was .." maybe I can start playing the lottery , maybe I win and I can effort this" and I was serious about that .
My mind was burned out and there I decided to embrace the surgery and don't be stupid and childish .
If the surgery wasn't an option ,by now idk but back then I would have suffered a sever depression and probably I wouldn't be the same today .
When you desire something this much and the world takes it from you , it's like someone s u love death , but in this case it's your soul dying inside.
So I would have not been suicidal but I probably would have been really really depressed and I would not be the confident guy I am today (besides height).
I want LL to be the best of my self not to compensate others areas of my life .
You seem not sure so my suggestion for you would be to improve yourself in any scenario you can think of .
Clothing,body,attitude,hairs etc. Take care of yourself and push your current self to the max of its ability .
I used to model and I still do (rarely lately tho because of my dysphoria ) for world renowned brands ,mostly for their website pages and/or underwears so I know how to take care of my self and I know what I am talking about ; it's a world of a difference and you will receive more attentions,girls and opportunities .
My reason to get this surgery even if I am avarage height and good looking etc. Its because I feel like I've been cheated because for 2 inches more I would have had a whole different career .
Not only for that , but I feel it's so unfair that for those 2 stupid inches I have to feel like this in many scenarios where I deserve way more !
It does not matter how many beautiful girls I can or can't have ,its about me and not feeling like I need to ask or beg just because I have it all but I am missing 2 stupid inches that if you draw a line in a wall they are NOTHING .
I don't want to feel like someone is doing me a favor for hiring me ,marrying me or loving me just because I am not the ideal height when I have it all on any other aspect .
I know others don't think it that way but it is how I feel and I want this s**t out of my head so I can love and enjoy with my mind free .Period.
So if surgery was not an option I would be depressed and a worst person on many aspects , but it is so I made the best with what I had in order to make the surgery the cherry on top,not the beginning of my changing journey .
Sorry for the very long answear but I feel the more details in our experience can help everyone decide and understand their feelings better as well.