The last couple of months have been relatively stable for me, height-wise. I've managed to stay in a good spirit for most of the time and manage my life with stability.
However, I'm now doing an internship during a summer, for which I commute to an office complex in a relatively wealthy part of a city, every day. Everyone treats me well at work and respects me, however, the part of town is full of tall people. I cannot explain if it's just my neurosis fking with me, but as soon as I leave the train, I immediately get towered by dozens of random dudes all around me, of which incredibly many are more than 10 or 15 cms taller than me. I could swear that around 80% of men are taller than me here, with perhaps 40-50% being taller to a significant amount. I cannot escape this brutal reality, so even if I wake up and start the day in a good mood, I'm put down by these hundreds of tall people simply being there and completely devastating me, making me feel like an unworthy, stunted piece of regularly.
It's a terrible feeling as usually, and it's hard to get through the next 8 hours with such a mood until I can finally head home. And all I can do is try to somehow nurse my soul by telling me this is an unusual social setting and I'm not that short, because I have often felt "shortish-average" in the past, and I still have the chance to do LL in the future, which can be a drastic change to my situation and an improvement, even if that surgery is still far ahead in the future. I gotta make it through this month somehow without suffering because I feel like subhuman trash so often.
Discuss.
