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[MissLuna]

I allow myself to post this here, I  can't find more appropriate place for this.
My height dysmorphia takes control over my life. I can't sleep at night, I can't think about anything else.
The injustice and lack of support does not help. When I see taller woman than me, my soul leaves the body and I get avalanche of suicidal thoughts. I can't see the light and I can't see the end of this suffering...

[Ascending]

I allow myself to post this here, I  can't find more appropriate place for this.
My height dysmorphia takes control over my life. I can't sleep at night, I can't think about anything else.
The injustice and lack of support does not help. When I see taller woman than me, my soul leaves the body and I get avalanche of suicidal thoughts. I can't see the light and I can't see the end of this suffering...

Hi MissLuna, I am really sorry to hear about what you are going through.  You should try and get some counseling if you haven't already done so.  Suicidal thoughts need to be kept in check.  May I ask how tall you are?

[MissLuna]

I did million times try, I visited psychiatrists/therapists but they did not hear about dysmorphia, nor they can help me.
I am feeling so low, my only point was to go trough lenghtening procedure, but when I will be ready, realistically is 1-2 years. 
I wanted to be a model, my whole life. But it requires to be 175cm-180cm. I am circa 160cm. So.. yeah

[Ascending]

I did million times try, I visited psychiatrists/therapists but they did not hear about dysmorphia, nor they can help me.
I am feeling so low, my only point was to go trough lenghtening procedure, but when I will be ready, realistically is 1-2 years. 
I wanted to be a model, my whole life. But it requires to be 175cm-180cm. I am circa 160cm. So.. yeah

There a lot of people in this forum in the same situation except that they are not suicidal.  That's where you should focus on getting help and i am sure a therapist will be able to help you.  It may be that the suicidal thoughts are not even directly related to your height.

[MissLuna]

I am saying clearly that I am unhappy about my short height that does not let me to be a model... it's only thing I am passionate about.  I am trapped in child's body.
The whole situation is way too hard for me,  I am vulnerable to any kind of mental disorders, I developed anorexia as a teen to make my legs look longer, as thinner... this eats me like a cancer ,since many years. And the vision of situation that does not progress pushes me even more to the ground.

[Ascending]

I am saying clearly that I am unhappy about my short height that does not let me to be a model... it's only thing I am passionate about.  I am trapped in child's body.
The whole situation is way too hard for me,  I am vulnerable to any kind of mental disorders, I developed anorexia as a teen to make my legs look longer, as thinner... this eats me like a cancer ,since many years. And the vision of situation that does not progress pushes me even more to the ground.

You need to think about things a bit less emotionally:

• Modelling is a hugely competitive career - most girls don't make it
• LL will leave you with some scars - how much depends on the technique and whether or not you have any complications - this may make it more difficult for to get a modelling career
• Depending on whether you do both segments or just one you may end up being somewhat disproportionate
• How would you feel if after getting LL you still were unable to get a career in modelling - would you accept that or would this make you more unhappy?

[MissLuna]

This is what makes me even more depressed because I AM aware of that. Looks like situation with no escape

[Ascending]

This is what makes me even more depressed because I AM aware of that. Looks like situation with no escape

At almost 5'3 you are at a very good height for a girl and since you are considering being a model I assume you are also beautiful.  I think you need to get some professional to help you get rid of the negativity that is troubling you.  Only then should you consider LL.  In any case, as you say you have 1-2 years before you could afford it.  Use this time to improve your mental health.    I hope you find peace and happiness.

[MissLuna]

Thank you for good will, but I often come to that place where I see no point of trying. Full of frustration, very angry.

[wants2growtaller]

its so funny that people assume that short women dont have height dysphoria or dont go through social struggles. im really sorry for what you are going through.  ANd yea you are right these counsellors are not going to understand what its like to be short. Heck they may be heightis themselves. Im not a counsellor or a therapist. But I can be a friend to you if you need it. I think what happen to you is that you have internalize heightism. You have received these message that tall is beautiful , short is not and your worth as a woman must first come from looking beautiful. ANd I getr that. It is so ingrained that one can not escape it. But I think you have to first recognize that you are symptom and the root cause is this heightist culture. Its everywhere. I put a post on here that said How I did not internalize heightism. It might help you. Anyways thank you for being brave enough for saying what you are going through. Because a lot of short people are going through what you are going through.

[Ascending]

Thank you for good will, but I often come to that place where I see no point of trying. Full of frustration, very angry.

Hey, may I ask how old you are?

[MissLuna]

I am 22 years old.
There are days when it is too much. So I posted to get a bit off my shoulders, I hear voices in my head/ people from the past/My family  on a constant repeat that point out my height. I noticed that taller women are mostly admired or just unique, and I look like anyone else, yet my height and look in overall are commented in negative way and it stuck in my mind. Frustration that comes with it is horrific.

[TruthBomber]

I allow myself to post this here, I  can't find more appropriate place for this.
My height dysmorphia takes control over my life. I can't sleep at night, I can't think about anything else.
The injustice and lack of support does not help. When I see taller woman than me, my soul leaves the body and I get avalanche of suicidal thoughts. I can't see the light and I can't see the end of this suffering...

First of all, yes, it is true that tall, slender girls are attractive and clothes look better on them. As a guy, I love tall girls, they are gracious.

Secondly, "modelling" is a vain, stupid dream. Everyone would want to be paid for breathing and looking pretty, because it is the biggest compliment you get. Paid for genetics, paid for looking good, paid for being there.

BUT

Not everyone gets to win genetic lottery. Without losers there cannot be winners. I would like to be a male pornstar as well, but I don't have the big schlong and typical masculine George Cena face that is mandatory for porn these days.

I would love to be a movie actor, but I don't have the bone structure that would look good on TV.

I accept this. You should, too.

Accept that you aren't perfect and there are better looking girls out there who will look better as models.

If you cannot be the prettiest you can dedicate your life to something else. Like most people do, because most people cannot be models.

So think about that. Maybe streaming on twitch?

Also, imagine how it would feel to go through pain of leg lengthening only not to be accepted as model due to your frame or face not being good looking enough. It's not just height, you need the whole package.